snail0810’s blog

30-09-2006 1.00a.m.
its raining now….
i acclerate my motorbike about 90km/h on road…
i cant feel the pain by rain-hitting…bcoz somewhere in my heart more painful…as painful as a knife-chop scar…
i dunno whether what i do is right or wrong..sometime i will feel i am really so silly..why i do such thing..and why???
did other appreciate what i have done???and maybe did others know what i done??
i felt close sometimes…but i felt very far too…
i may quit…but i know i dun want to..i know what i wan and what i wish to have…
i am willing to wake up 4am every morning…spend hours and hours time a day…searching for old old newspaper for about
two hour…but i dun know what i would get….
yes or no???

i have come out with a very crazy idea…if i put many ‘marks’ on the ground…what would happen????

i think all nerdy student would come and swept away the marks without my permission…. my teacher is right..he say..

"now its not about why u wrong…but why u lose the mark…"

what????marks really mean the whole world????did it???

sometimes i really get annoyed while other keep on begging teacher for juz one mark….one mark???i can still accept if the one mark can lead u to a better grade…but many people still begging for marks when there r a long distance to et themselves to A grade….

and why i hate after-exam time???people who get higher mark will come and say

"wah…u get so high o!!!!how u get it???"

in fact, they get higher….oh shit!!!!

anyway…if u agree with me…leave me a comment and let us together say NO to mark orientated style examination.

haha..its quite funny when i found this pic…if i am not mistaken..this pic took when i am in form 1..haha..guess where am i?? ^_^

it seem like juz a while from 13year to 17years…i never know it could pass so quickly and i change so much…haha…

juz left one month from my SPM…kinda nervous about it…i need to study hard and work hard hard..!!!!

now..we r all at the important stage of our life…i wish we can do very well in SPm….my fren…i love u all

counting counting…how many time left exactly???rough estimate…three week????four week???or maybe juz two week T_T

i am quite worry about my SPM….haiz…dunno whether i can score it well or not…i lose the confident!!!! i use to be a very confident student b4..but now..i am not.

many subject need my special ‘repairment’….wonder what i will get in my SPM…haha..sure i wish i can get the best result that i can have…

end my trial….still need to study…i wan to play…i wan to rest..i want to do what i wan..i want to go for a trip..i want to loiter everyday!!!!!!arksss…but i cant coz i know what is more important now…

which way should i follow in my future age????i dun know…maybe i will be a successful businessman…a doctor???maybe…or a beggar???

life is always unexpected…

haha….i cant go and joggging for a week edi…still hurt…my leg didnt recover well….

wonder how long would it take my time….its the second week of trial….

is it the time for me to think that which way should i go in my future…..???

i wonder…sometime i really dun know what i wan….

freedom??? priviledges promising job??? better offer job???

it really a question always in my mind..

I dun like my family always arguing..thats why i dun like to stay at home…. i like to go out…and i dun wan to see the face shown by my brother and my mum..i dun like when they r arguing…. its really annoying..i dun like to see them arguing…too add the insult of injury…my neighbour always arguing too…i mean…what?????thing can solve by arguing??? i really dun wan to see anymore arguing scene..people…plz be mature…

no one hope to live in such a bad condition i supposse….

i am not a saint..i know what is anger too…plz…stay peace…

sometime its better for me to study outside…and i really study at others home this few day…coz i dun wan to see they arguing….

i am facing my trial now..people said this is important…wish me luck….